Top priority?
by wenn on Wednesday, January 25, 2012
When I was planning my ever so perfect plan A or any other plans on that matter, I never really did take my ability to adapt into account. I naively thought that time could cure anything but reality has proven otherwise.
A few days before, I finally get to meet up with my high school friends. Only when I've met them that I knew how much I missed them. How important they truly were. And I'm not just talking about close friends. Even those hello-bye friends brought relief with their presence. Something that the Taylor's bunch haven't had the ability to give me yet I never thought friendship weighed so much for me.
It's only going to be 18 months in Taylor's. Then, I'll be off somewhere else, fending for myself and my future. Alone. I know that they will be there but not always as even my own shadow leaves me in the dark. Only now did I realise none of my I-thought-were-flawless plans include making new friends or keeping the old ones. I can't imagine what my life would be like then.
All of this leads to the fork in the road. There was only one path in front of me before. Now, there are numerous. How should I choose, knowing that I will come to regret my choice? The never chosen paths will forever be better than the ones I already had.
Confusion. Worry. Frustration. Despair. Ignorance.
Chinese New Year
by wenn on Friday, January 20, 2012
Holidays. Finally.
College has only started for two weeks
And I'm already half-dead.
My brain shuts down automatically during Thinking Skills.
I don't understand why is it necessary to memorise the diameter of a mitochondrion.
I can't understand my Physics lecturer.
I don't know why my Chemistry lecturer always look at me for answers.
I don't want to be recognised by my Mathematics lecturer.
All my books are so heavy.
I still have to read up on Ramsden and Breithaupt during the holidays.
Okay, enough with the complaining.
All in all,
The lecturers are still okay. For me.
I guess I'll have to thank ChongHwa for that.
The best thing is I get to do my own experiment with a whole set of apparatus to myself.
Taylor's is great, just totally different from my previous environment.
I still can't speak English.
One more thing,
One of my classmate actually thought that all ChongHwa students are genius.
Well, I don't qualify as one. Apparently and obviously.
potential pitfall
by wenn on Sunday, January 15, 2012
Looking back at my my junior years, I saw only fragment of memories. All of which consisted of examination and assignments. Like many of my peers, I had a must-win altitude, maybe more serious than anyone of them. I wanted to achieve the best possible result at literally any consequences. But unlike my peers, I don't like to participate in activities. Keeping to myself, I don't have many friends and that made my life miserable as it is.
I realised my mistake and tried hard to correct it just in time. I have grown to love activities and had even gain a few close friends. The last-minute effort make a 180 degree turn in my school life and I now find myself missing it dearly.
I'm not the most sociable person and am quite indecisive. But I ensure you I will commit 100 percent in anything I engaged in and will not stop until I reach perfection. I have missed many chances to do something worthwhile in my life. I intend to seize this opportunity and make the best of it. The student council will definitely be a place for me to learn and enrich my college life.
Alright, I haven't been writing essay for a long time.
This is the application essay for the student council.
Should I even apply?
If I fail, I will be living the next 18 months in hell.
It's all just in my mind
by wenn on Wednesday, January 11, 2012
I tried..
I tried to take the first step.
I tried to make conversations.
I don't know if it's just me thinking too much
But they don't seem to want to talk.
Maybe just with me specifically.
Hence, I always end up in an awkward silence after a few Q&A.
Until now, there's only been three types of people in my PM
The girls that talk about shopping and discount all day long
The boys that talk about sports and tech gadgets.
And then, there's me.
If I'm not mistaken, I'm the only one that went to a Chinese school
who frankly can't speak English.
So, there's the classmates.
Well,
The lecturers are all very nice.
I think I'll have a better chance at building teacher-student relationship than with classmates
In the end,
I can't wait to end orientation and start classes.
With books, homework around,
And those extra-curricular activities waiting for me
I won't have to worry about finding people to accompany me anymore.
Quite frankly,
I miss ChongHwa already.
I tried to take the first step.
I tried to make conversations.
I don't know if it's just me thinking too much
But they don't seem to want to talk.
Maybe just with me specifically.
Hence, I always end up in an awkward silence after a few Q&A.
Until now, there's only been three types of people in my PM
The girls that talk about shopping and discount all day long
The boys that talk about sports and tech gadgets.
And then, there's me.
If I'm not mistaken, I'm the only one that went to a Chinese school
who frankly can't speak English.
So, there's the classmates.
Well,
The lecturers are all very nice.
I think I'll have a better chance at building teacher-student relationship than with classmates
In the end,
I can't wait to end orientation and start classes.
With books, homework around,
And those extra-curricular activities waiting for me
I won't have to worry about finding people to accompany me anymore.
Quite frankly,
I miss ChongHwa already.
That went well
by wenn on Monday, January 9, 2012
First day of college.
Was very reluctant to walk into the front gate at first.
While I was busy figuring out ways to start conversations on the stairs
A girl which has all the time been around me talked.
Oh, blah blah blah...
Talk talk talk
Went into Multi Purpose Hall
Talk some more..
Orientation!
Then went to class
The much-hated ice-breaking session
And it has to be done in english!
Too bad my class doesn't have any foreigners
Sneaked into the neighbouring INTI with nat's help
Then walk around campus since there's still time
Talks again.
Ended at 2pm, Home, 4pm
Yeap, that's 2 hours.
All in all, the orientation was much better than I had hoped
And my spoken english doesn't seem so bad?
Other than using "more harder" though.
I shall enjoy the following 18 months.
Was very reluctant to walk into the front gate at first.
While I was busy figuring out ways to start conversations on the stairs
A girl which has all the time been around me talked.
Oh, blah blah blah...
Talk talk talk
Went into Multi Purpose Hall
Talk some more..
Orientation!
Then went to class
The much-hated ice-breaking session
And it has to be done in english!
Too bad my class doesn't have any foreigners
Sneaked into the neighbouring INTI with nat's help
Then walk around campus since there's still time
Talks again.
Ended at 2pm, Home, 4pm
Yeap, that's 2 hours.
All in all, the orientation was much better than I had hoped
And my spoken english doesn't seem so bad?
Other than using "more harder" though.
I shall enjoy the following 18 months.
Nice to meet you.
by wenn on Sunday, January 8, 2012
Alrighty..
Orientation will be commencing tomorrow.
Yikes..
As much as I wanted to start college
I still haven't overcome the psychological issues
Who will I meet?
Will they be nice?
What should I say?
Every atom of me is scare of the unknown.
For the sake of the coming eighteen month
I have to be everyone but myself.
I can't imagine being the form-one-me again.
Wish me luck.
Orientation will be commencing tomorrow.
Yikes..
As much as I wanted to start college
I still haven't overcome the psychological issues
Who will I meet?
Will they be nice?
What should I say?
Every atom of me is scare of the unknown.
For the sake of the coming eighteen month
I have to be everyone but myself.
I can't imagine being the form-one-me again.
Wish me luck.