Genesis of Life

desire
a concreate yet abstract word
a word that cause many bad things
but also good things

we have another esemble today
last week's score
i didn't even memorise the score
looking at the score
i felt my fingers moving but
my mind and heart is empty
when we played to a part where rapid fingering is needed
i was confused
eventhought i've practised

i've so many desire this year
i want A's
8As in PMR and another 8 in UEC( or is it 7?)
but can i really achieve this nearly impossible goal?
dad promised me a netbook for straight As
the one thing i want the most
maybe i should say byebye to it already
tests is getting nearer and nearer
and yet i'm sitting in front of this computer
staring into the blank webpage

another desire.........
to perform in the wanrenyan (need help in translating!!!)
but conductor said that there are too many dizi
those that are poor are going to be kicked out
and remain a newbie throughout his/her entire 'life' in the society
that means no more performance
whoa.............
fortunately it won't be me
will it?