Genesis of Life

another esemble today
must've been the worst of so many
conductor was angry
althought he didn't show it
i knew
if you could just see his face
that face of having no other choice
that face of wanted to give up but just can't
something so familiar

28/7 is the solo competition
i'm so scared
i'm not fully prepared
not yet
even if i did
i won't be able to perform well
not alone
stupid stage fright


since july begin
i never gone through a week without tests
i'm not criticizing
but i think that our headmaster's demand is a bit unreasonable?
how could we achieve such a big leap?
we're just students
not some computer or hard disk that can save everything with the push of a button

now's the time
to choose science stream or art stream

if you ask me few years back
i would say "of course science lah"
but it's that really what i want?
i don't want to study book keeping or economics
but the so-call 'art subjects' had gotten me high marks in the past
as for the 'science subject'
i'm weak in physics and maths
th 2 most important subjects in science stream
if i'm getting into art, i've a better chance at scoring high marks but lead a dull high school life
on the other hand, if i get into science
i could be happy to study my favourite subject, that is biology and chemistry
but i'll have to go through a lot of hardship
and i'll have to prepare myself for horrific result

23 days to PMR trial exam
how i miss the times
when i could stare blankly at the ceiling
when i could let my heart roam free without worrying about time
when i could let my mind choose what it want to do freely
with the whole room filled wth music


music somehow always manage to relieve my burden
but this year
music is starting to be a burden itself
all thanks to our 'considerate' conductor