Genesis of Life

is it just me?
or that it's really happening?

have group study today
talked about physics
that's not the point

she said something
just a little something
but it shattered my heart

but does it really matter?
it's just a word
did she mean me?

shouldn't be thinking about something so negative
after all, we did promise each other to be best friends until the end


3 zhong is having another outing again
sadly, i'm not going again!!!
our class should be called 3 zhong+1
i'm the plus one
i really wanted to go out with friends
i'm already in form 3
i don't want to miss anything anymore
but my mom......
my studies......
sigh.....
just ignore all of this
not worth your time

as i expected
he's at it again
so unfair
why me?
out of so many people
why me?
as i know you don't want me

remember that session last time?
you told me the news
what did i do wrong?
that you have to do this to me
ever since
my passion started to faded

i want to forget this
i want to get my passion back
but you don't care
always remind me of that stupid little thing
i don't want it to happen too
it's not my fault
i want to pass too
it's your problem
you didn't gave me the chance

everytime i started to have a little confidence
you put it out
that tiny little flame is really starting to go out

i can go anytime i want
so, why didn't i?

i'm not suppose to talk about it

the last few days
until the beginning of hell
i kept studying but i just can't remember it
when i thought i remember all the important notes
i don't
so, how am i going to survive
7 days of hell?

why must i care so much sbout results?
it's not that important that i need to get a mouthful from coach
i hate this life
always rushing
always competing
always crying
but there're still something good in this life
like my family
this week i really felt their love for me
my mom kept telling me not to give myself to much pressure
my dad helped me so much on physics
my brother...........
actually, he didn't do anything
he just stop bothering me
and that should be done a long time ago

hope i could achieve good result this time
if not, i'll need to go back to school on the holidays for more tuition
i certainly won't let that happen
but it's not entirely up to me