Stress
by wenn on Friday, March 30, 2012
Okay. The stress of A level has begun to show itself. I have been through biology, chemistry and physics presentations, did more projects and experiments than my 5 ChongHwa years combined. These are totally beyond my comfort zone as I have no experience and no expertise. Hence, you can imagine how the results are. I always felt that I have lots to do but in reality, not that much. I can still have free time if only I knew how to manage my time well,in which the steps don't include typing this insignificant post. Yea, well. It's fun to actually get to learn new things and experience it first hand. It's even more fun to actually excel in it and become the best in class, minus a few very strong competitors.
Being from a Chinese independent school, my mindset and theirs are very different. They think about the texts in ways I've never even thought about. And for the same reason, I have this weird thinking that I have to do better than them. I am definitely not looking down on them. But I have learnt much more than them. By right, I should have the ability to score higher and better. And did I? Well, aside from a few very threatening kebangsaan people.
Someone commented that I emphasized too much on academic results. I have never perceive it as a bad thing. It was the force that had moved me and will keep on moving me. Only until recently that I start observing from another perspective. I knew that there's more to life than result. I want my college life to be fun and memorable also. Oh and by the way, I have this recently developed bad habit of doing everything based on recognition by my lecturers. For the sake of my testimonial, I wonder how much more realistic will I become?
Being from a Chinese independent school, my mindset and theirs are very different. They think about the texts in ways I've never even thought about. And for the same reason, I have this weird thinking that I have to do better than them. I am definitely not looking down on them. But I have learnt much more than them. By right, I should have the ability to score higher and better. And did I? Well, aside from a few very threatening kebangsaan people.
Someone commented that I emphasized too much on academic results. I have never perceive it as a bad thing. It was the force that had moved me and will keep on moving me. Only until recently that I start observing from another perspective. I knew that there's more to life than result. I want my college life to be fun and memorable also. Oh and by the way, I have this recently developed bad habit of doing everything based on recognition by my lecturers. For the sake of my testimonial, I wonder how much more realistic will I become?
21.03.12
by wenn on Wednesday, March 21, 2012
熟悉的陌生，期待的见面
如心之所愿，错过的完美
所谓努力，证实不足
Yea. SPM. That's what happened. I was so excited to be able to see my somewhat long-lost friends and I did, which was a great thing. But then, It didn't last for long. I took my results and I cried. As expected, I got straight A's. I'm not at all, boasting. But my tears was not of happiness but disappointment, not because I didn't get the straight A+s I desperately hope for but for biology, in which I have put in enormous effort. I knew for a fact that it's impossible to get the perfect result but I had hope anyway. In many people's eyes, my result was great enough. I would think that too if not for Biology, which was the subject I worried the least. I guess I didn't put in as much effort as I thought I did. My only hope now is too prevent history from repeating in A level.
Oh, I was happy, having many friends at my side when I'm at my weakest. But someone I treasured dearly actually made a comment that hurts above all else, even the result.
如心之所愿，错过的完美
所谓努力，证实不足
Yea. SPM. That's what happened. I was so excited to be able to see my somewhat long-lost friends and I did, which was a great thing. But then, It didn't last for long. I took my results and I cried. As expected, I got straight A's. I'm not at all, boasting. But my tears was not of happiness but disappointment, not because I didn't get the straight A+s I desperately hope for but for biology, in which I have put in enormous effort. I knew for a fact that it's impossible to get the perfect result but I had hope anyway. In many people's eyes, my result was great enough. I would think that too if not for Biology, which was the subject I worried the least. I guess I didn't put in as much effort as I thought I did. My only hope now is too prevent history from repeating in A level.
Oh, I was happy, having many friends at my side when I'm at my weakest. But someone I treasured dearly actually made a comment that hurts above all else, even the result.
by wenn on Friday, March 16, 2012
I'm starting to wonder how is it that there's no presentations in ChongHwa? That's probably one of the biggest disadvantage. Everything depends on presentation now and I have no idea how to do it. Hence, physics, which unfortunately became my first presentation failed miserably. And now, I have 3 more coming my way, each one harder than the other. Right, guess I'll just have to tell the whole world that I don't know English, then maybe they will pity me and restrain themselves a bit from dying of laughter. My group mates are probably brainstorming on how to get rid of me as I type.
I can't believe it's mid of March already. SPM result will be release next week!
I can't believe it's mid of March already. SPM result will be release next week!