Genesis of Life

Well.....
as wished
tomorrow, oppsie, today was declared as a holiday
so, i'm going to get bored again
holiday....
i don't like them anymore
i need to do more
i'll miss my friends
and
my bad habit'll get worse

Eventhought there are tons of homeworks at school
tons of pressure exerted by teachers
tons of tests, followed by
tons of disappointment
but i felt good

it's 2.00am in the morning
and i'm still sitting in front of the computer
maybe that's why i kept failing?

some gratitudes
Lala,
sorry for being so gloomy that day
i know i shouldn't make a fuss over something like this
everyone was in a bad mood
but still thanks for ignoring me
and for being the pair of ears when i need it
hope i didn't annoyed you

WenYee,
at least i know you'll be at my side no matter what
as i'll be
we still can speak our minds to each other
maybe we're still compound after all
Kelvin,
some new friend, huh
just got to know you this year
and yet.......
you should've just ignore me like the other does
anyways, thanks for the concern

well, it ended...
nothing 'much' to talk about

bm........
maybe one of the worst subject
let's just focus on the positive side
39 people passed ^^
the other 21........
oh, well. let's just say they got unlucky

english
erm... really not much hope here
maybe our class is going to get the worst english result
again!!!
so much for the first class......... T.T

geography..
didn't put much effort here
thanks to our teacher

science....
there's two questions that we kept argueing about
turns out i got it right, both of them ^^
sorry, ziqing

sejarah...
erm..... might be the worst result i've ever got
really really bad result
course i'm not telling!!!

mathematics......
might be the easiest maths test in my whole three years in ch
literally.......

KH......
no hope here
only darkness

chinese.....
not sure if it's easy or hard
no feeling
the last subject
the funny thing is nobody studied for it
well, except for the hardworking few
not me:P

tomorrow's going be a heart-shattering day
let's just hope i can pass all of them
UEC coming up
haven't study a thing!
science & history on the same day
9 books
physics gonna eat up 3/4 of my time again
imagine that...

chatted with huimin today
talked about the education system in Malaysia
and comparing to that of Singapore
well, you know which side wins
I really want to go to Singapore!!!
but my results are too........
sigh.......
how am i going to survive university?

can't believe i'm here
should be reading books
sejarah + science

anyways, had english test today
i was like stunted when i saw the questions
guided essay, hate it
summary, hardly summarise it
novel, haha..... memorise it but quite messy
she's so gonna died when she sees our answers
so unfortunate to have her as a teacher
guess what
no tuition on holidays
for me anyway
a bit relieved
and a bit disappointed

what kind of result was that?
and you're in 3 zhong?
you don't deserve to be in this class
3 de seems nice =.=

urgh......
i'm gonna go and study

wait for me
you......
i'm gonna get you
no matter what
you're not getting away from me!!!

p.s. wish you all the best in the competition :)

3 days to the PMR trial exam
list of subjects need to revise
1)sejarah
2)geografi
3)science
4)........
...........
why am i sitting here anyway?
urgh.........
sejarah........ (pls just disappear)

thought i was lucky enough to avoid viruses
but no
a runny nose+ sore throat
hate it..........

7 more days to the PMR trial exam
not prepare
i have a feeling that it's not going to be good
haven't begin revising sejarah
400~ pages.....

hasn't broke out in so many years
why did it happen today?
is it indicating something?

i sat for the UNSW english test today
i went to the auditorium on 8~9 period
there was a few articles on the questions booklet
there was one that i don't have any idea what it's talking about
something about river Thames
i can't even begin to imagine what my result would like
participation maybe? or worse?

went to practise today
encounter something strange while i was walking on the corridor
i heard someone called my name
but i looked around
nobody was there!!
spooky, right?
maybe i missed it

here i am........
sitting in front of the computer
something i haven't touch for 5 whole days
when i should be sitting in front of my reading desk
facing mountains of books that need revising
but i'm not
i set up a goal on monday
i wanted to train my willpower
by not touching my beloved computer for a week
but i only managed to adhere to my original 'plan' for just 5 days
actually that's not bad

we have exams the next whole week
monday-PMR BM
tuesday- biology
wednesday- geography
thursday- sejarah
friday- UEC BM
saturday- chinese
no kidding
this is real

the solo competition is getting nearer
i 'm still not familiar with my song
so scare
i'll lose my chance if i fail
that won't happen
cause
i'll give it my best
nothing's going to stop me

math......
a short and simple word
but
in reality? no
it's not simple
even "hard" is not enough to describe it
maybe to some people, it's a boring subject
to others, maybe it's a subject to score
but not to me
i don't think it's boring
but still
i can't score high marks
why?
simple..........
because i'm stupid
that's why........

numbers, numbers, numbers.........
who invented math anyway?
i don't know if i should say thanks or curse him/her

these few days, i can't seem to get away from maths
numbers, numbers, numbers.......
that's all in my mind
argh................
i still have so many exercise to do
teacher just gave us previous years test question
UEC Math- 1999~2008
PMR Math- 2005~2008
14 sets............
560 question and that doesn't include subjective
i'm going to be dead

100 or so days to the big day
still can't find the impetus to study
i feel like i've left the other subjects like english, science, physcis........
out in the cold
and if they catch a cold
i don't know what should i do..........
sigh....................

the last few days
until the beginning of hell
i kept studying but i just can't remember it
when i thought i remember all the important notes
i don't
so, how am i going to survive
7 days of hell?

why must i care so much sbout results?
it's not that important that i need to get a mouthful from coach
i hate this life
always rushing
always competing
always crying
but there're still something good in this life
like my family
this week i really felt their love for me
my mom kept telling me not to give myself to much pressure
my dad helped me so much on physics
my brother...........
actually, he didn't do anything
he just stop bothering me
and that should be done a long time ago

hope i could achieve good result this time
if not, i'll need to go back to school on the holidays for more tuition
i certainly won't let that happen
but it's not entirely up to me

today's the 3rd of may
lit jie's birthday
yesterday, yong hao passed a card to me to write for the birthday boy
actually, i'm not very familiar with him
well, we've been in the same class for the second year(so.......)
we rarely talk

i'm really degenerating!!!
i can feel it
i planned to study science today
but
sigh............
i've been doing algebra for about 2 1/2 hours
such a long time
how am i going to survive the test?
2 hours for 10~12 questions
and after i finish it
i've been sitting in front of the tv for what?
2?3? hours
why am i like this?
the mid year exam is so near
less than 10 days to study for so much syllabus
i'm so dead

oh, by the way
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LIT JIE
and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CIKGU YEW
you're the best bm teacher i've ever had
hope you're happy always

just one last thing
tomorrow's melanie's birthday
and
the day after tomorrow's chong wei's birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MELANIE & CHONG WEI
sorry, mel for didn't getting you any present

finally, i've finished all the tests
and surprisingly some of it is quite easy
especially science
althought i'm not certain if i could get high marks

something happened at school today
it was a perfect day if not for the short three hours
that really annoyed me
the seniors want us (the whole dizi team to transfer to suona)
just because there's too much of us
and 'luckily' there's some volunteer
they wanted to try it out just for fun
and the seniors said that they could transfer back if it's not suitable
but when they wanted to transfer back to their orginal team (dizi)
the seniors scolded them
actually there's only one that had scolded them
so, now there's no one that wanted to transfer
later we'll all be scold by coach for being selfish
at least that's what they've told me

i'm so fed up by these kind of things
i'm really very unlucky this year
why can't i just put all my attention on PMR and UEC ?
why do these things keep happening on me?
hate...............................

I'm so depressed
yesterday, i was scolded by a teacher
when i didn't do anything wrong
it was her fault
she didn't heard me knocking the door
then she said that i don't respect her
i'm so innocent!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've been thinking
is it really my fault or is it her fault?
i told some of my friends
they said that both were wrong
ok, i admit
i should have knocked for a few more times
at least until she heard it
haiz......................
i'm still so depressed

it's a miracle that i survived this week
tomorrow's the last day
science
i've studied it for about 2 hours
it's quite easy
hope to get high marks on every subject

wow
time passes so fast
it's already mid-april
i've just got some of the syllabus for the mid-year exam in mid-may
it's so scary
especially history and physics
14 chapter for history and 10 for physics
T_T

i won't be posting for a while
i'll have to start revising
if not i'll be dead
when the mid-year exam starts
there's still PMR and UEC

something come into my mind suddenly
the juniors are going for a competition next month
so, coach will be 'hauling' back to train them
S.O.S

last tuesday, i went for the interview of my society.
if i passed the interview, i'll be a performer without having to wait another year
and i'll get to go to kedah to perform
but i failed.
i don't know if i should be relieved or dissapointed
if i'm chosen, the songs i need to practice will be tremendous
and i won't have the time to study for PMR and UEC
but the songs were so beautiful
i heard the others played
i envied them
should i be relieved that i didn't get chosen so that i could study for the tests?
or
should i be dissapointed that i didn't get to go to Kedah to perform such beautiful songs?

our basketball boys team lost in the final
but still they've already broken the record by entering the final.
another good news
our class choir team got 2nd place in the first round.
lost to 3ren
i heard them singing their song
take these wings
it's so beautiful especially when they were so cooperative.
wish that we could win in the final

next week, i'll be going to hell
i've got tests the whole week
not a day to rest
i'm so dead

teachers have finally finish marking the exam papers
most of the teachers is dissapointed
15 people failed english
nobody got full marks for algebra and set theory
few of the teacher that teaches important subject is happy
highest score for chinese -98.5%
highest score for bm - 95%
history is hardly an important subject but teacher said that most of us got full marks
(including me =)

last thursday,
practise basketball
my whole body is soooooooooo sore

the tests are finally over
i've haven't been posting for about 2 weeks
got full marks for history
happy, happy...
i've saw the Asean Scholarship on the newspaper the other day
for those who want to apply go to
http://www.moe.gov.sg/education/scholarships/asean/
basketball competition is still on
almost forgot

as i wish, we,ve won the game
but
we didn't even touch the basketball
the other class didn't show up
and
that means that they have given up
sigh.................
i don't know if i should be happy or sad

we'll be playing with another class for the next game
the class which didn't even let their opponent touch the ball on the first game

it's going to be a busy month
the monthly test is just 10 days away
i haven't start revision

today,
so busy
so exhausted,
so angry.......................................................

finally, i finished the teacher-said-very-easy algebra
now,
need to revise for tomorrow's chemical test

got a basketball competition tomorrow
wish me luck