Genesis of Life

desire
a concreate yet abstract word
a word that cause many bad things
but also good things

we have another esemble today
last week's score
i didn't even memorise the score
looking at the score
i felt my fingers moving but
my mind and heart is empty
when we played to a part where rapid fingering is needed
i was confused
eventhought i've practised

i've so many desire this year
i want A's
8As in PMR and another 8 in UEC( or is it 7?)
but can i really achieve this nearly impossible goal?
dad promised me a netbook for straight As
the one thing i want the most
maybe i should say byebye to it already
tests is getting nearer and nearer
and yet i'm sitting in front of this computer
staring into the blank webpage

another desire.........
to perform in the wanrenyan (need help in translating!!!)
but conductor said that there are too many dizi
those that are poor are going to be kicked out
and remain a newbie throughout his/her entire 'life' in the society
that means no more performance
whoa.............
fortunately it won't be me
will it?

math......
a short and simple word
but
in reality? no
it's not simple
even "hard" is not enough to describe it
maybe to some people, it's a boring subject
to others, maybe it's a subject to score
but not to me
i don't think it's boring
but still
i can't score high marks
why?
simple..........
because i'm stupid
that's why........

numbers, numbers, numbers.........
who invented math anyway?
i don't know if i should say thanks or curse him/her

these few days, i can't seem to get away from maths
numbers, numbers, numbers.......
that's all in my mind
argh................
i still have so many exercise to do
teacher just gave us previous years test question
UEC Math- 1999~2008
PMR Math- 2005~2008
14 sets............
560 question and that doesn't include subjective
i'm going to be dead

100 or so days to the big day
still can't find the impetus to study
i feel like i've left the other subjects like english, science, physcis........
out in the cold
and if they catch a cold
i don't know what should i do..........
sigh....................

teachers have finally finish marking the exam papers
most of the teachers is dissapointed
15 people failed english
nobody got full marks for algebra and set theory
few of the teacher that teaches important subject is happy
highest score for chinese -98.5%
highest score for bm - 95%
history is hardly an important subject but teacher said that most of us got full marks
(including me =)

last thursday,
practise basketball
my whole body is soooooooooo sore