Genesis of Life

Well.....
as wished
tomorrow, oppsie, today was declared as a holiday
so, i'm going to get bored again
holiday....
i don't like them anymore
i need to do more
i'll miss my friends
and
my bad habit'll get worse

Eventhought there are tons of homeworks at school
tons of pressure exerted by teachers
tons of tests, followed by
tons of disappointment
but i felt good

it's 2.00am in the morning
and i'm still sitting in front of the computer
maybe that's why i kept failing?

some gratitudes
Lala,
sorry for being so gloomy that day
i know i shouldn't make a fuss over something like this
everyone was in a bad mood
but still thanks for ignoring me
and for being the pair of ears when i need it
hope i didn't annoyed you

WenYee,
at least i know you'll be at my side no matter what
as i'll be
we still can speak our minds to each other
maybe we're still compound after all
Kelvin,
some new friend, huh
just got to know you this year
and yet.......
you should've just ignore me like the other does
anyways, thanks for the concern

i've say this many times already
UEC trial is over......
what's to happy?
no more sleepless night?
no more fear that i don't know how to answer?
no more thinking about tests when i should be asleep?
NO!!!
this is just the trial
i've haven't finish the real thing just yet

results.....
good? nope....impossible
bad? not really.....only some
it's neither good nor bad
i don't really know
physics & mathematics
no confidence at all
geography? history?
no feeling....==
biology? chemistry?
total disappointment T.T
who's to blame?
me, myself and I
they were once the subjects i have most confidence in
but now.......=(
they ended up being the biggest disappointment
bm? chinese? english?
not bad actually^^
but i didn't put much effort in these subjects==
but my bm is still no good
no A in neither of the test
well, all in all
it's all my fault if i didn't get good enough result
what if i study earlier?
what if i did many exercises?
no use at all
i'm not one of those reading-material
whatever you call it

that bad habit of mine seemed to get worse over time
i thought it would be better after the tests
but it got worse instead
almost every night, after i turned off the com
still can't get asleep
i would lie on my bed
and start thinking about society& results&friends

friends.......
i did make some new friends this year
and a good thing too
but my friendship with WenYee seemed to worsen as time goes on
where did all that laughing and crying go?
we can't speak our minds to each other anymore
what's happening?
results..........
i'm not going to talk about this
i've talked too much about result
society.......
i've really ignore society these past few months due to the tests
i've haven't touched my dizi for a long time already
i don't know if i still can play that fast
31/10 the next esemble
can't even rest after UEC
argh........
my mind's going to burst

we've finished our uec trial today
went to Midvalley with 3 zhong-ers ^^
7 of us went there
ShingYing, KaiYee, LayKun, KerSin, me, ZiQing and Kelvin
took a bus to bandaraya
and then a train to Midvalley

guess what we've done after we got out of the train
there were some salesmen? salesgirls? want us to support something
after their constant nagging, i surrendered RM 10 to them
for a wooded puppet which is just about the size of a sweet
so not worth it ==

then, went straight to the cinema at the top floor
can't decide which movie to watch at first
wanted to watch orphan
but only 18++ can
so, final destination?
nope, nobody wants to
fine.....==
when it was our turn to buy the tickets
we still haven't decide what to watch
we gather around the counter and i think we really annoyed the box-office cleck
after constant discussion, we've finally decided to watch Imagine That

then, everyone was hungry
KaiYee and KerSin went to some other place to eat
the other five of us went to McD's
burgers for all
and made the Himalays with french fries =P
we ate and talked and laughed ^^
then due to lack of time, we've to get into the cinema
Ziqing pour the coke into his bottle
and bring some french fries into the cinema

we've made it just in time for the movie^^
2.10pm~ 4.00pm
funny movie and really touching in the end^^

then wander and wander and wander
to Yamaha
Flute RM 3000++
i want one......==
KaiYee, LayKun and KerSin went home after that TT

wandered aimlessly again.....
got some ice-cream
then walked around and finally decided to go home
5pm++
went to the bus station
missed the first and second bus
waited for a really long time
and chatted with ShingYing^^

then finally, a bus came
we went to Bangsar station
and got to KLCC using Putra
ShingYing &ZiQing went to Avenue K to take a bus back home
Kelvin took the Putra again
and i went to find my mom
and that's about it

still didn't talk much this time ==
ok, i'm such a boring person

uec trial......
after a week of near-death experience
it ended
i wondered why i make such a big fuss over PMR trial ==


chinese.......
the hardest chinese paper i've ever done
the subjective questions was like so.......
can't even find the word to discribe how hard it was
urgh......
i'm gonna get B again!!! T T


art......
haha, i just draw a bunch of things to cope with teacher's demand
shh.....don't tell him =P

bm......
quite alright, i think
well, at least it's easier than PMR's
the only paper in PMR that is easier than UEC's ==

geography.......
T.T i'm so dead....
not enough revision.....
lazy me ==

Day 3
went to hell that day

history......
.........
.........
.........
what do you think?
2 books.......

science......
biology was ok ^^
chemistry was a bit tricky but well, still ok
physics......
paper 1 was not ok
don't know how to do most of it
and didn't even have enough time
paper2 was kind of a contradiction of paper1
but still, i'm not confident if i could get good result T T
i think i need to reconsider the getting-into-science-stream decision

english.....
well, didn't study much for it
i've a feeling i'm going to get bad result this time ==

mathematics.....
i'm confident in this ^^
confident to fail, that is
paper1, not enough time and my mind haven't started to work yet
paper2, well, it was quite ok
at least i knew how to do 6 questions
that lala still have time to do the 7th question after checking the other questions ==

the conclusion,
i did bad in UEC
i'm so going to regret for not studying more
i'm regretting now T T

had an outing with some friends today
my first ever outing with 3 zhong-ers
it turned out much more better than i first expected

reached klcc at 12.30 pm
went to kinokuniya to meet with zhaiyun and kelvin
i saw so many books that i wanna buy T.T
CONTROL....
CONTROL...
CONTROL...
can't resist anymore
bought a book

after that, went downstairs
zhaiyun& kelvin packed some pretzel
then off to the book fair we go

went to the english section first
didn't spot anything
that i wanted to buy
should have bought those books at kinokuniya T.T
kept on walking and walking
then we reached the CD section
wow
there's so much music there
and we met with shingying, litjie, yonghao, xinle, ziqing, yunhwa, wenyi, kersin and suepei
spent most of our time here
finally spot it
STUDIO GHIBLI CONCERT for just RM 25++
and
another one the soundtrack of the movie
also for just RM 25++
used up RM50++for CDs
then walk around and around
spotted so many CDs i want
Kitaro's !!!
look at the price first
RM64........==
but i did get it in the end
thanks to kelvin
thanks!!! ^^
after going around and around
spotted another one
a collection of oldies?
guess how much it cost
RM 195
wanted to divide it among 10 people
RM19.5 each
but gave up in the end

continue walking
to taiwan
then to HK
last to China
saw jimmy's book there
discount over RM 10
but gave up on it
regret...
but i did spent RM 64 on 4 books
which i know i won't have time to read

after that, walk walk walk
out of the bookfair
spent some time in front of the armani shop
zhaiyun went home after some time
then went to KFC
meet with ziqing, shingying.........
had some kind of afternoon tea
*time passed*
yonghao, litjie, wenyi, kersin, suepei went home
the only ones left are me, yunhwa, shingying, kelvin and ziqing
wanted to watch orphan at first
but changed to the proposal
went to the playground while waiting for the movie
imagine us
a bunch of overgrown children
playing in the playground ^^
back to the cinema
6.20pm til 8.30pm

the movie was quite funny ^^
kevin is soooo cute (the spelling isn't wrong)
i'm not going to spoil it for those who haven't watched it yet

had dinner at the food court
shingying had nasi kandar (or was it something else?)
the other four of us shared a pizza
not bad thought, RM 14 for a pizza
since some reasons, i have to pay
fine.......

got back home at about 10.20pm
well, that's about it
since it's my first outing with them
we didn't talk much
but still, it's fun^^
maybe we'll go again next time

holidays are supposed to be relaxing, aren't they?
a stupid question even one-year-old could answer

if you ask me years back
i would say yes without due consideration
but now
i don't really know the answer
i could choose to relax
and everything would be a tragedy
or i could choose to push myself harder
and relax after finishing all the tests
so, what should i choose?


i sort of always sleep late this year
i know it's a very bad habit
but i just can't seemed to sleep early
i did plan to do revision
but i end up chatting with people
surfing the net
listening to music
and forgot about the books

i know i do annoyed them
always dwell on those pointless and dull topics
maybe i should just lock the com away
and never touch it again
that should be a relief to them

wen yee,
even though you didn't say it
i know you're disappointed
i know you're angry with me
i know you've waited a long time for this
it's all my fault
i'm so sorry
i didn't mean to break the promise
so sorry...