Genesis of Life

these few day, really confusing
i don't know what should i do
walking around
day- dreaming
watching the performances
i want to be on stage
but
my technique is too terrible
i seldom practice
i've got no talent
my fault
i'm not good in extra- curricular activity

and now even my academics starts to fall
maths use to be an easy subject
but now
advance isn't enough to describe it
it's like a chain on my body
i can set myself loose
but only if i try
very hard

i wonder what'll happen in the future?
can i really get inot a university with this kind of achievement?
hardly..............

last friday, i went to wen yee's house for group study
don't doubt me, it's real
i arrived at 12.30pm
at first, i thought i was late but it turned out that the other two haven't arrived yet
later, when everyone was there
we went out to buy lunch (guess what. McD, :P)
we chatted when we're eating
there were five of us
but
only four were talking
i felt like an outsider
well, i'm one
they're all 3ren
i'm in 3zhong
it's normal that i don't know what they're talking about

we started discusing bm after lunch was finished
and from that time on til 4.00pm
we've discussed bm and bm only
the boys went back home on 4pm

4pm~ 6pm, doing homework
and at the same time, listening to music
had a little break somewhere in the middle
didn't talk much
i have a feeling that our bond is weakening
we used to talk about everything
i meant everything, literally...

i still want her as my best friend
but i don't know if she wants me as her's

I still remember our form 1 science teacher
he referred to us as compound
are we still compound?
or just element that have nothing to do with each other?

Maybe i'm just too sensitive
maybe it's all just my imagination
she's not like this

as i expected
he's at it again
so unfair
why me?
out of so many people
why me?
as i know you don't want me

remember that session last time?
you told me the news
what did i do wrong?
that you have to do this to me
ever since
my passion started to faded

i want to forget this
i want to get my passion back
but you don't care
always remind me of that stupid little thing
i don't want it to happen too
it's not my fault
i want to pass too
it's your problem
you didn't gave me the chance

everytime i started to have a little confidence
you put it out
that tiny little flame is really starting to go out

i can go anytime i want
so, why didn't i?

i'm not suppose to talk about it

frankly, i'm not very exciting about this vacation
i want to be at school
with friends
playing, talking, studying, mocking the teachers :p

i'm going to Singapore with my family next week
friday til sunday
it's been so long since i been there
Singapore is the first country i been to
if i remember correctly
it's been 7 years
out of so many places i've been to
i liked Perth the most
the evening breeze
the night sky
it's so beautiful
it's such an ideal place to live in
except for those flies
so annoying....................
Perth would be perfect if not for them

today i went to wen yee's house
actually there's nothing to say
we're just talking and singing
and i kept complaning about the choir competition (which i shouldn't)
forget about the competition
we've watched joe hisashi's concert together on net
it's so beatiful
no wonder so many people liked it

we've lost
all these weeks of practise...............
down the drain
i'm not greedy
but i think that everyone really put our heart into the choir
especially weiyi

the moment when they announce the result
it was really exciting
we all thought that we're going to win
but we didn't
i couldn't believe it
we sang so beautifully (teachers said so)
3 ren got the champion
this i submit
3 xiao got the first runner- up
ok , i'm a bit sad

never mind the prize
we've learn so many things in the process
we've strengthen our bond when we're practising
that's all that matters

3 zhong is the best!!!

we paint our class yesterday
it's really fun
we made a mess of ourselves and our class
everything was so messy and sticky
there were newspaper and water and paint all over the place

i'm really proud of myself
i did so many things with my friends
first, i went downstais with weixin to pour clean water as we the pail was needed to mix the paint
then, i started working in zhiqing's team as planned
i started out as a transparent 'thing' as i didn't had anything to do
later i get to take over i lyng's job as she was tired

after our team finished paint the wall
cailing and i went to cleaned the pail as asked
we got downstairs and cleaned it but dirtied ourselves
after we get the pail back upstair
yuning and i started painting the doors
at first, the paint was a bit 'weird'
because we forgot to add thinner
this was when i first got my shirt dirty
after this, the paint started to 'like' me

when we were painting the second door
kelvin came and offered to help
of course we rejected as we were enjoying ourselves
then he get a paint brush out of nowhere
after a while, he held up his brush and painted my head
luckily i had a paper hat on
but the paint still managed to get to my hair after a while and that was my own fault

at 1.45pm, we finally finished painting
the bell rang at 1.55pm
i got to my bus and this was it
after a hard day's work
our class looked beautiful and new and tidy
all thanks to our coorperative classmate and our teacher
hope to do something like this again
i really had fun eventhought i'm dog-tired