Genesis of Life

i can't bear it anymore
my heart is bleeding
why am i so stupid?
i'm so brainless
i'm such an idiot
how can i make so many errors
english..................
i don't even want to talk about it
sigh.......................

we're going to paint our class tomorrow
for 4 whole periods
yeah
hope that it will be fun
i like to paint
especially when i don't have to worry about destroying the whole thing
hahaha.......
now i'm sure tomorrow's going to be very 'enjoyable'

no society tomorrow
planning to practise choir together after school
again
i'm rather fond of these after school practise
it's good that we could do something together
best wishes for our team

finally, the mid- year exams passed
like a gust of wind
the last few days nearly killed me
seven days without my beloved computer,
i can't believe i didn't even touch it
for SEVEN WHOLE DAYS !!!!!!
well, except for the day that i did grammar exercise on the net
quite affective
doesn't matter now
all has become the past

these few days as i expected
would be very exciting
teachers are giving back our exam papers
i can't believe that i make less than 10 errors in sejarah
science......
nah, not really good but still not bad
geometry...........
i passed, that's all it matters
chinese..........
as usual, nothing special
bahasa..........
cikgu yew doesn't even wan to face the fact that we........
well, we just score a bit lower than she expected
just "a bit"
right
english.............
ms ong haven't finish marking yet
jus like i expected
waiting for tomorrow
really excited

today, our class is really noisy
and i meant noisy
because
the mid- year exam passed
no need to burn midnight oil again
yeah.................
the final day of the exam, the whole 3 zhong stayed at school to practised for the choir competition
well, almost everyone
it was really fun, they even get to go to kepong to eat 刨冰after the practise end
must be very entertaining and amusing and pleasurable
urgh...............
how come i didn't get to go
oh, right.........
because my mom said so
and one last thing

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, ZI QING

the last few days
until the beginning of hell
i kept studying but i just can't remember it
when i thought i remember all the important notes
i don't
so, how am i going to survive
7 days of hell?

why must i care so much sbout results?
it's not that important that i need to get a mouthful from coach
i hate this life
always rushing
always competing
always crying
but there're still something good in this life
like my family
this week i really felt their love for me
my mom kept telling me not to give myself to much pressure
my dad helped me so much on physics
my brother...........
actually, he didn't do anything
he just stop bothering me
and that should be done a long time ago

hope i could achieve good result this time
if not, i'll need to go back to school on the holidays for more tuition
i certainly won't let that happen
but it's not entirely up to me

today's the 3rd of may
lit jie's birthday
yesterday, yong hao passed a card to me to write for the birthday boy
actually, i'm not very familiar with him
well, we've been in the same class for the second year(so.......)
we rarely talk

i'm really degenerating!!!
i can feel it
i planned to study science today
but
sigh............
i've been doing algebra for about 2 1/2 hours
such a long time
how am i going to survive the test?
2 hours for 10~12 questions
and after i finish it
i've been sitting in front of the tv for what?
2?3? hours
why am i like this?
the mid year exam is so near
less than 10 days to study for so much syllabus
i'm so dead

oh, by the way
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LIT JIE
and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CIKGU YEW
you're the best bm teacher i've ever had
hope you're happy always

just one last thing
tomorrow's melanie's birthday
and
the day after tomorrow's chong wei's birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MELANIE & CHONG WEI
sorry, mel for didn't getting you any present

finally, the long expected holiday is here
i could finally get to sleep to my heart's content
actually, there isn't much free time for me to lie fallow
list of things need to be done
1.sejarah project
2.geography project
3.art
4.choir practices
5.revise math&physics(which will take 3/4 of my time)
6.more practices for taekwondo

i'm so surprised that the teacher didn't gave any homework today
teachers are supposed to give tons of homework on the eve of holidays
no matter
it's better they didn't
today, the group study didn;t actually went as planned
we're still dwelling on archimedes's principal
i'm still don't get the whole idea
so confusing
i need Einstein's brain

i've finally found the infomation for the sejarah project
thousand thanks to you
zhe yann

i'm really so proud of myself
i did what cikgu yew told us to
i used peribahasa on every paragraph of the essay
many of you may think that i'm a narcissist =P

i passed the basketball exam
4 balls in a minute
not bad=)

once again, for helping me
thank you, Zhe Yann

i can't belive it
i completed the running test
15min37sec
wow
i've even passed
happy..........=)

stress is finally begun to show itself
only 5 month until the big day
and still
i'm here posting
i feel like i'm degenerating.
it's not that i don't want to study
i just can't find the impetus to study
sigh...........................

today got group study with wen yee and wen ting
they're so pro
we've studied physics- archimedes's principal
it's so confusing
B=pvg
buoyancy of water equals to the volume of water the solid discharged

we're going to celebrate teachers' day this year
in our class with us planning our own schedule
so exciting......

here i'm still siting in front of the computer doing something i shouldn't be doing on school night
sigh..........
where's my will to study?
does anyone notice it anywhere?

i've still got to complete the sejarah project
no point in doing that

finally, i've finished all the tests
and surprisingly some of it is quite easy
especially science
althought i'm not certain if i could get high marks

something happened at school today
it was a perfect day if not for the short three hours
that really annoyed me
the seniors want us (the whole dizi team to transfer to suona)
just because there's too much of us
and 'luckily' there's some volunteer
they wanted to try it out just for fun
and the seniors said that they could transfer back if it's not suitable
but when they wanted to transfer back to their orginal team (dizi)
the seniors scolded them
actually there's only one that had scolded them
so, now there's no one that wanted to transfer
later we'll all be scold by coach for being selfish
at least that's what they've told me

i'm so fed up by these kind of things
i'm really very unlucky this year
why can't i just put all my attention on PMR and UEC ?
why do these things keep happening on me?
hate...............................