Genesis of Life

It just seem right.

2012-02-06T21:20:00.003+08:00

I have been struggling with my resume/ curriculum vitae for the passed few days. I have never been in a committee before nor do I know anything about being one. A sudden drastic change like this is totally over my safety limit. But then if I don't, I won't even stand a chance against all those superhuman out there for scholarships.

When I was writing, I stumble upon a recurring questions. Why do I want to apply for that particular post? Why? I have no idea. I just want something to write on my personal statement, for my testimonial to stand out. Well, to tell the truth, if I were the interviewers, I won't choose me. I don't have great leadership and teamwork skills. I'm not a people person. I don't even know what I want anymore. That's just so saddening.

How is it that as a person grows older, confusion follows? How do I get back to the time when I can see the path ahead clearly? The older I get, the more I lose myself. When I look upon my reflection, I don't recognise the face.The world used to be so marvellous, so without worries.

Time's almost up. There's a reason I haven't been to the placement centre yet. I don't have the answers to the simplest question. I have no idea. It just seem right.

Top priority?

2012-01-25T00:58:00.002+08:00

When I was planning my ever so perfect plan A or any other plans on that matter, I never really did take my ability to adapt into account. I naively thought that time could cure anything but reality has proven otherwise.

A few days before, I finally get to meet up with my high school friends. Only when I've met them that I knew how much I missed them. How important they truly were. And I'm not just talking about close friends. Even those hello-bye friends brought relief with their presence. Something that the Taylor's bunch haven't had the ability to give me yet I never thought friendship weighed so much for me.

It's only going to be 18 months in Taylor's. Then, I'll be off somewhere else, fending for myself and my future. Alone. I know that they will be there but not always as even my own shadow leaves me in the dark. Only now did I realise none of my I-thought-were-flawless plans include making new friends or keeping the old ones. I can't imagine what my life would be like then.

All of this leads to the fork in the road. There was only one path in front of me before. Now, there are numerous. How should I choose, knowing that I will come to regret my choice? The never chosen paths will forever be better than the ones I already had.

Confusion. Worry. Frustration. Despair. Ignorance.

Chinese New Year

2012-01-20T16:30:00.001+08:00

Holidays. Finally.

College has only started for two weeks

And I'm already half-dead.

My brain shuts down automatically during Thinking Skills.

I don't understand why is it necessary to memorise the diameter of a mitochondrion.

I can't understand my Physics lecturer.

I don't know why my Chemistry lecturer always look at me for answers.

I don't want to be recognised by my Mathematics lecturer.

All my books are so heavy.

I still have to read up on Ramsden and Breithaupt during the holidays.

Okay, enough with the complaining.

All in all,

The lecturers are still okay. For me.

I guess I'll have to thank ChongHwa for that.

The best thing is I get to do my own experiment with a whole set of apparatus to myself.

Taylor's is great, just totally different from my previous environment.

I still can't speak English.

One more thing,

One of my classmate actually thought that all ChongHwa students are genius.

Well, I don't qualify as one. Apparently and obviously.

potential pitfall

2012-01-15T02:06:00.001+08:00

Looking back at my my junior years, I saw only fragment of memories. All of which consisted of examination and assignments. Like many of my peers, I had a must-win altitude, maybe more serious than anyone of them. I wanted to achieve the best possible result at literally any consequences. But unlike my peers, I don't like to participate in activities. Keeping to myself, I don't have many friends and that made my life miserable as it is.

I realised my mistake and tried hard to correct it just in time. I have grown to love activities and had even gain a few close friends. The last-minute effort make a 180 degree turn in my school life and I now find myself missing it dearly.

I'm not the most sociable person and am quite indecisive. But I ensure you I will commit 100 percent in anything I engaged in and will not stop until I reach perfection. I have missed many chances to do something worthwhile in my life. I intend to seize this opportunity and make the best of it. The student council will definitely be a place for me to learn and enrich my college life.

Alright, I haven't been writing essay for a long time.

This is the application essay for the student council.

Should I even apply?

If I fail, I will be living the next 18 months in hell.

It's all just in my mind

2012-01-11T22:12:00.000+08:00

I tried..
I tried to take the first step.
I tried to make conversations.
I don't know if it's just me thinking too much
But they don't seem to want to talk.
Maybe just with me specifically.
Hence, I always end up in an awkward silence after a few Q&A.

Until now, there's only been three types of people in my PM
The girls that talk about shopping and discount all day long
The boys that talk about sports and tech gadgets.
And then, there's me.
If I'm not mistaken, I'm the only one that went to a Chinese school
who frankly can't speak English.
So, there's the classmates.

Well,
The lecturers are all very nice.
I think I'll have a better chance at building teacher-student relationship than with classmates

In the end,
I can't wait to end orientation and start classes.
With books, homework around,
And those extra-curricular activities waiting for me
I won't have to worry about finding people to accompany me anymore.

Quite frankly,
I miss ChongHwa already.

That went well

2012-01-09T22:36:00.000+08:00

First day of college.
Was very reluctant to walk into the front gate at first.
While I was busy figuring out ways to start conversations on the stairs
A girl which has all the time been around me talked.
Oh, blah blah blah...
Talk talk talk
Went into Multi Purpose Hall
Talk some more..
Orientation!
Then went to class
The much-hated ice-breaking session
And it has to be done in english!
Too bad my class doesn't have any foreigners
Sneaked into the neighbouring INTI with nat's help
Then walk around campus since there's still time
Talks again.
Ended at 2pm, Home, 4pm
Yeap, that's 2 hours.

All in all, the orientation was much better than I had hoped
And my spoken english doesn't seem so bad?
Other than using "more harder" though.
I shall enjoy the following 18 months.

Nice to meet you.

2012-01-08T22:05:00.002+08:00

Alrighty..
Orientation will be commencing tomorrow.
Yikes..
As much as I wanted to start college
I still haven't overcome the psychological issues
Who will I meet?
Will they be nice?
What should I say?
Every atom of me is scare of the unknown.

For the sake of the coming eighteen month
I have to be everyone but myself.
I can't imagine being the form-one-me again.

Wish me luck.

Dreams and Reality

2011-12-31T01:00:00.000+08:00

All those time
The memories
They're like grains of sand
As soon as the winds of time start to blow
They'll be nothing more but a wisp of cloud
That I once and will always treasured ever so dearly.

So, the last day of the year.
Time for confessions and retrospection
And most importantly, planning.

I admit I've chosen a hard road.
I still don't know if this is really what I want
I doubt myself all the time
Having second thoughts and reassured by something
Although I do still hope that someone would be able to talk me out of it.

I'm walking the talk now.
My ever so perfect plan A.
Which at some point is kinda over-idealistic
Getting into Taylor's.
Then get accepted into Oxford Med with perfect score
All tuition fees paid by scholarships.
And "Poof" everything becomes nothing more than a dream

Being realistic,
Looking at my results
There's no way I'll get to study in the United Kingdom
Least way getting full scholarships
And more least way into the overly expensive Oxford
And most impossibly into the highly competitive Med
So, overall
Plan A is a fantasy. Nothing more.

But since It's still far away
I'll let myself dream for a longer time.

I only have one life and one chance.
I want to make the best out of what I have.

timeless

2011-12-17T19:19:00.001+08:00

I never thought this trip could be so memorable.

Although it wasn't anything exciting

It gave me an indescribable feeling

Since I'm not very familiar with many of them

I never thought this trip could be so much fun.

They were the best four days and three nights in my life

We talk, we laugh, we make fun...

Slept at the kitchen and the living room.
Shivering but enjoying the cool breeze
Fighting for food, blanket and bathroom
Chatting abnormally...
Surprise realisation of how gentlemen the boys truly were.

All these have become an eternal marking in my heart, my mind and my life.
Sometime in the future,
I'm sure the memories could still warm my soul even in the cold and harsh winter.
I loved how we gather together in the kitchen and living room
Sharing our pasts and futures
Giving comments
Making fun
Commercial time while buffering..
Everything seemed so normal yet so unique and precious
I've never had this kind of feeling before.
Truly irreplaceable

短短的四天，无限的回忆
冰冷的被窝，暖暖的心房
走过的沙滩，错过的夕阳
客厅之哆嗦，厨房之狼狈
风趣之形容，篡改之名句
仰望着未来，牵挂着过去
十七年岁月，有此四日，足矣！

I know I shouldn't be having any second thoughts.

What if I couldn't cope?

I can't imagine reverting back to the quiet me.

I couldn't live that life again.

Suddenly, plan A doesn't seem so perfect.

There are no words for this.

2011-12-10T02:06:00.001+08:00

I've forgotten how long I've been typing and erasing.
So much to say, so much to remember.
These are the memories I never want to forget.

The first two years were a blur.
But I remember clearly, my English teacher during the second year.
Because of her, I have a firm grip on grammar.

Probably because of having an irrational mind, maths and physics have always been my weak subjects.
For which is fatal in Chong Hwa.
That was a lesson I learned the hard way during my fourth year.
Speaking of the fourth year, It wasn't as honeymoon as the others said.
Rather, It was quite the opposite and most of the time, sleep-deprived.
But thanks to both my calculus teachers this year, I have gotten to know how great it feels to ace calculus.

The third year was the best year and will probably stay the best forever.
Everything turned out as I wanted them to be.
Well, luck never stay with one person for long.
I'm still trying to retrieve what was stolen.

五年了
发生的事实在太多太多了
但一切的笑容与眼泪都成了过去
一下子就化为过眼云烟
却为我的中学生涯画下了最完美的句号

看来阿
英文在怎么好也及不上母语好
Isn't it too late to realise that now?

It hurts much more than I thought It would.

2011-10-12T20:51:00.002+08:00

Plan A. Shattered.
It's holiday tomorrow. Luckily.

Plan B means Senior three.
Seems like ChongHwa doesn't want to release me yet.
But..

Alright.
That's back to the drawing board for me.

capricious.

2011-10-10T18:34:00.002+08:00

It's really annoying how adult could be so predictably unpredictable.
Or was it just me?

Yesterday was the open day of my about-to-be Alma Mater
It's been a great pleasure aside from being inhumanly exhausting.
Anyway, most of the parent had already planned their child's future
Which college to go, what course to take, etcetera...
And they're just in primary school!

In contrast,
I'm about to sort-of-graduate.
And I'm still not really sure about the way ahead.
Oh, sure. Someone might say it's great to be in control of one's own future.
Problem is. It's way out of my safety limit.
Well, I just don't like being lost.
Like I used to be. Last year.

Well, the mist is starting to clear up. I guess?
More or less. It's already planned out.
So, sorry mom.
There's definitely no way I'm taking economics.
Even if it means getting to study in the UK.
Fingers crossed.

collapsed.

2011-10-03T22:00:00.000+08:00

I was never a believer in fate.
Until now.

I don't know what's the definition of hard work
But I know I've given my everything for this trial.
And yet?

Fate has a weird sense of humour.
It's been playing me around for so long.
I can't help but think I'm predestined to never get my way.
I'm tired of fighting the losing battle.

But still I don't have the guts to let go.

Deja vu.

You seemed like an interesting person.

2011-10-01T00:42:00.001+08:00

So, trial ended.
Conclusion, there goes my 18k
The more I studied, the more I felt them slipping through my hand.
I don't even know if I can get 1k.

During 25 Sept, I was still torn between going and not going to the interview.
So, I make a daring choice.
I'm glad I did.
After the briefing, from which I know I'm the first of Group B, we were led to a series of corridor, the others were assigned to their specific interview rooms in threes. But I was the only one called to mine. When I opened the door which I hoped was somehow locked but wasn't, A blonde guy was sitting at the other end of the room. My interviewer, Easton Hanna. Canadian.
Great. Just great.

Some fun stuff.
Him: Why is there so much exams in Malaysia? (Not a question)

Me: No offence. But I don't really like America.
Him: It's okay. I'm not American. Me neither.

During the whole interview, I was speaking broken English, with pauses here and there. Come to think of it now, there's also quite a lot of funny/weird answers which I definitely would not use in my writing. Totally embarrassing! This might actually cost me the scholarship. Can I reverse the time? Speaking of time, It was so surprising that the session lasted for an hour. Have I really spoken that much? Hmm...

Well, although I did badly and probably didn't stand a chance against all those SMK students. I'm still hoping. Anyway, this was my first interview and I'm really glad I went. Every fragment of details was still fresh in my mind. Well, that just proved how embarrassing it was.
And the title. It was a statement he kept repeating. Yea, I know he's just pep-talking me.
Oh, and he kept telling me to sell myself.

I've been waiting for a week to blog about this. It's just plain exciting to be recalling it now. Even more breathtaking than finishing trial.
If only I could speak like I write. Sigh.
I do really need to speak more English. Seriously.

Reminiscence.

2011-09-10T16:32:00.000+08:00

1 week. 7 days. 168 hours. 10080 minutes. 604800 seconds
I'm still nowhere near ready to sit for the trial.
I really don't want to screw this up.

600 others are facing the same situation
But It still feels like I'm alone
Competing with those whom I hold dear
Do I even have the means?

I'm really afraid
It's as if my fear is eating my very essence
Leaving me hollow on the inside.
Like a robot, doing only what it's programmed to do.

All these late night studying
As the title suggests
Pieces of memory resurfaced.
Somehow, they don't look the same any more.

Everyone
At some point
Will be forced to make decisions
Decisions they would regret for a long long time
Even if time could be reversed
The same decision will still be made under different circumstances
At least I knew you tried.

2011-08-29T22:50:00.001+08:00

Can anyone grant me a wish?
Make sejarah disappear please..
I can't believe I actually
Didn't go to the bookfair for it. -__-
看我怎样宰死你！

Conclusion
1. I need extra doses of norepinephrine & dopamine. -.-
2. Sejarah caused indigestion

Dear memories,
You do know how much I love you right?
Please love me back.
And stay right where you are.
You can go anywhere after December.

2011-08-24T23:24:00.000+08:00

I guess my limited vocabulary isn't enough
Just to start describing how I feel.
Maybe there aren't any words
Five years. Three years.
Both are my most precious treasure.
How can I ever leave them?
It just keeps getting harder and harder.
But still, I'm a lucky girl after all.

You said when I'm your age
I'll understand
I am now. I still don't.

Unspoken fear.

2011-08-18T22:11:00.001+08:00

A month to go!
And I still haven't started yet...

When one door closes, another opens for us. But we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.

I'm scared.

Thinking of all the what-ifs that could throw me off my track.

What if I wasn't supposed to be on that track?

I don't wanna be seventeen

2011-07-30T21:39:00.001+08:00

No matter how intense the hatred is.
3 years of memories
How could I ever forget?
今天的齐奏赛，是在暗示着我什么吗？

It's easy, saying I want to leave.
But now, as the year's coming to an end
I realised that I don't really want to leave
Distance doesn't affect?
Just over a few months and I've already noticed the growing gap
You're all my precious treasures
I don't want to lose any of you.

I really do need someone to convince me to give up
Or better, someone that could give me a million
There's too much to think about.
Too many paths to consider
I'm not even seventeen yet.
Why can't I just leave it to the adults?

August is coming. Again.
Growing up has its excitement and surprises
But every once in a while
I would wish I'm still that naive little kid
Reading my own little fairy tale

2011-07-18T20:35:00.002+08:00

Okay.
I know what I want and how to get it.
But the means..
I'll have a lifetime worth of debt.

Two choices..

1. Go for A-level and use it as a stepping stone.1

1/2 years + lots of $ + better chance

2. Go for Senior 3 and apply for UCAS using SPM.

3/4 years + less $

Choice no.2 does seem more attracting, doesn't it?
But I know for certain that I can't handle maths & physics.
As for No.1
Do I even stand a chance for JPA? Or the National Scholarship?
Could I even score In SPM?

Just unify all the curriculum already.

Two years back, when I've started to research on it
The entry requirements, tuition fees, countries...
I was convinced to gave up then.
She reignited that dream.
But then, I've always gotten everything I wanted before.
It's just a matter of time

2011-07-04T21:39:00.001+08:00

Hmm..
I'm being really unproductive
Ever since the midyear holiday

76 days til trial
132 days til the real thing
Yikes!

8/7
All those talks about scholarships scare me.
I really really don't wanna leave.
But I don't have much choice.
Do I ?

2011-06-18T21:34:00.000+08:00

What can I say?
Nightmares actually work wonders.

I'm relief.

2011-06-07T21:41:00.001+08:00

It seems so long ago
when I had the time to be engrossed in a novel
to get lost in the virtual world
So very missed the feeling.
The reality is just too complex

It seemed that I still very much like to be left alone

I'm not ready for SPM yet.
Too many things
Too little time

2011-05-28T22:17:00.001+08:00

Wow
A full-scheduled holiday.
Loved being busy though.
Still have a dozen homework piling up
Bah, I wanna be lazy
Just for now
I'll so regret this.

Shh...
I wanna date ShingYing again.

29/5
Something's happening.. more precisely happened
17 months ago
Severely disrupted my inclination to enjoy the long-awaited holiday
Why should I be blamed for a now-regretted choice which I then objected?
Once is enough.

2011-05-22T00:02:00.001+08:00

太得空了，打下华语

雪莹讲我不会把握机会
也许吧
我太注重别人的看法了
太容易被人影响
但焉知非福？

I think I should revert back to English
My PinYin's really messy
So, today.
I've invented Calculish/Englus?

Oh, while mom was fetching me home
we had an interesting conversation
Something about hating the M people
Then she says not to judge so fast
Silence~~
She added "you'll hate them more after getting to know them."
Huh!

And a really really surprising news
The everyone-wants-to-get-into-no-matter-what,
one-of-the-world's-top-20-renowned-university,
one-of-the-best-health-science-institution-in-the-world
Johns Hopkins University's setting up a med school in Serdang
Yes, the Serdang in Malaysia
Oh, did I mention it was in the top 20?
Globally?
You'll be seeing unicorns flying in the air later.

This leads to the talk about the future.
Which then leads to SPM
Which then leads to how much I wanna die just thinking about the trials..
Which then leads to me questioning myself
Which then leads to me asking why money has to exist
Which then mom go through all those explaining again, which I won't know even it's already the nth times I've heard of it.
Which then leads to scholarships, specifically JPA after the previous all-8A+-student-will-get-one thingy. Duh.
Which then leads to a virtual(?) thinking that if I didn't get straight A+ in SPM, I'll lose everything.
讲来讲去，还是钱在作祟

回想起初三，那么的单纯
事情也相对的简单许多
那时，死党就单纯的说说笑笑
高一，心里藏了无法说明的秘密
无意间地，与人群疏远了
想法，复杂化了吗？
才一年的时间，怎么世界就旋转了360度？
高二，去与留如何决定？
Bagai kapal kehilangan nahkoda

Bear with me
I'm bored.

2011-05-20T22:52:00.001+08:00

My last Midterm

Hohoho

Is finally over.

My sense of accomplishment is really high right now.
I'm just so happy that I can get back the feeling. Safe
Knowing what the questions want
Knowing how to complete the paper
Last year was a total nightmare.
My effort paid off.
Ha!
The results... I hope will be good.

Well, I'm gonna rest for this period
Then, it's trial-fighting time.
I'll get my 18k.
Feels good too, to have an aim.

Everybody around me seemed to be important
To someone, to something.
I'm still just the tiny little me.
Did anyone notice my existence at all?

Said so.

2011-04-27T23:09:00.001+08:00

I can't breathe

I can't feel the earth.

Which is up?

It's been a while since I last stayed up after midnight
Solely to enjoy the silence of it
To regret the happened-s and the didn't-s.

I need someone to talk to
Without having to say a word.
I want time to stop
At this exact moment.

2011-04-12T21:40:00.001+08:00

Feels awesome to get drenched
Once in a long while.

I'm still not working hard enough.
Me, being here proves it.

It's a long way up.
Might as well just go down.

Eww..
I've lost my touch in essays.

2011-04-04T15:38:00.000+08:00

Screwed Oral and Lisan
Starting to get all frustrated by the homework
Sounds familiar, huh.

Quoted "I shouldn't care so much"
But I guess I'm a sore loser.

2011-03-22T21:07:00.001+08:00

I'm almost certain about the way ahead
Then comes the financial factor
Why do I always have to choose the most expensive?

Well, everyone tells me to just focus on SPM first
As I see it, there won't be enough time
January intakes starts November
And they reserve more scholarships for January students.
Or maybe I should 'migrate' in September?

Oh, SPM gonna be release tomorrow
This time next year
I want to be the one laughing so hard, that everyone thinks I'm a total psycho.
Not the one crying in a corner.

2011-03-18T02:22:00.000+08:00

I thought so.

desir

2011-03-15T23:30:00.002+08:00

Another performance.

2nd April 2011

I don't want it to be my last.

But I have to let go.

Well, they might be better off without me.

Right then.

I don't know what I want.
I can't even make a simple choice
All those concerns, fear
How pathetic

Take care, Japan.

2011-03-13T00:32:00.000+08:00

Officially free from the exams

At least for the time being

When's the last time I stay up so late?

MOE

Don't disappoint me, please.

dilemme

2011-02-19T16:28:00.005+08:00

Yet another..
I've had my fair share of happy and bad ending.
What's it gonna be this time?

Easy enough
I'll have to either overestimate myself or be selfish.
But either way,
I'm gonna end up regretting not choosing the other one.

船到桥头自然直
If you didn't paddle the boat
Would it still arrive at the riverbank?
The possibility of it getting lost with the flow is much more higher.

nouvelle annee

2011-02-04T00:46:00.079+08:00

Oh, well..
It's the Lunar New Year.
But it doesn't seem so here.
Just a few lite decorations every here and there.
Even Chinatown seemed deserted.
Since when Sg became so Westernised? o.O

So, Reunion dinner at Marina Bay Sands..
Just another overly-luxurious shopping complex
They have a whole Orchard of those
By the way, saw lots of Apples..
And Amazon Kindle.. >.<
Basically, It was shopping shopping and more shopping..
Other than a day at Sentosa.

Enough complaining.. =P
I'm totally in love with their MRT
Oh, oh, and Il Gelato di Bruno
After that cup of $6 Cioccolato Fondente,
I'm never gonna be satisfied by normal ice cream. =D
Too bad they're not in M'sia. YET.
Hmm.. I didn't/haven't/won't see any Malay word here.
My kind of place. =)
Clarke Quay.
Basically a street full of bars
Oh, the best thing about Orchard Rd.
Kinokuniya and Borders, all in one street.
That reminds me,
Their national library is way awesome than ours.-.-

I wanna go NUS and NTU badly.
Too bad dad had to work.
And mom wants to shop.
So, until the next time.

/* Congrats on the official admission. All the best. */

c'est la vie

2011-01-28T23:27:00.005+08:00

So, it was Eng period, I was busy doing exercises for the coming Physics test.
I did pause at intervals to listen
But then, I look around..
So much unfamiliar faces
I can't even find a person to really talk to
It's just so saddening
I guess that's the only reason I regret failing last year.

I kept feeling that I'm behind schedule
But then I'm actually ahead.
Is this a warning that SPM is nearer than It seems?
I'm not in study mode yet.

Oh, my couplets actually made the best five.=D
Just saying..

2011-01-23T22:12:00.000+08:00

Wow
It's the third week already.
School still okay, I guess
Didn't I say that this time last year? >.<

Eng? Or should I say Customer Relationship Management class? Kindergarten style. -.-
Bio.. Felt like a SMK teacher, if you know what I mean.
Comp.. luckily it's not included in SPM..
Conclusion of a 3 week observation
NO sign of changing yet..

Off to limit.
Bonne Nuit.

2011-01-09T00:53:00.000+08:00

First week of school..

Hibernated too long during the holiday

Got tired very easily recently.

Good thing being in an unfamiliar class
I can concentrate again.
Study study study...

Self-learning for English. Again.
Did someone curse me?

I'm starting to worry about Dec already..
I'm going to have a nervous breakdown
Sometime around May or June..

2010.

2010-12-31T05:23:00.001+08:00

Well. 311210.
The last day of twenty-ten.

This time last year, I was actually really looking forward to the beginning of the new school term. A big part of it was because most of my good friends were in the same class, the other part was to prove to my parent that I didn't make a wrong choice, by choosing science stream. I tried to conquer the primary subjects, and at first, I think I did great. I got marks that I've never dreamt of getting. But that didn't last long. The following examination was a disaster. Maybe I got too proud that I forgot to try harder. Then, It was Mid-term. This time I really did try. I've never worked so hard, not even for UEC and PMR. Staying up for 9 days straight, imagine that. The only support was the result I might get for my effort. But I guess I ran out of luck. The result was even disastrous than the last time. The followings were all of the exciting part of roller-coaster.

Then something came up, the 7th August performance. I had a choice to give up the chance. I tried convincing myself that I couldn't possibly be able to find a pivot point between my curriculum and the performance, especially when my result was falling down a steep slope. But I just couldn't resist trying out the new instrument, and ended up burning my candle at both ends. Well, the performance turned out nicely. But the standardized test that came after didn't. Then the preparations for the 全国华乐合奏大赛 in December. It was after I almost finished the two scores that they told me I wasn't participating. Try being in my shoes that exact moment.

Okay, enough of the bad things. 2010 wasn't all that bad. Actually, it was kinda great. I tried out lots of new stuffs, experienced loads of first-times. I was kinda relieved that I didn't give up 7 Aug. If not, I won't be able to learn the new instrument, practise till midnight, ensemble for 8 hours straight, laugh while being scolded, sit at the corridor of the hostel while everyone else was sleeping, eat instant noodle at midnight, sneak up to the mixer's station, make fun of each other's make-up, perform in public, and lastly, strengthen the bond between. And as for the competition, if I did participate, I won't be able to read my books, practise the songs I want, have outings, finally master bawu and taodi. And 4S Zhong. Anim8or project, sport day, our very own kopitiam, anything and everything. What can I say? The right time, the right place, the perfect classmates, all of 'em. 5S Ren? Maybe.

So, I guess I didn't make the wrong choice after all.
As for senior 3. I guess there's still time.

feux d'artifice

2010-12-26T01:04:00.002+08:00

Happy Boxing Day. Lendemain de Noel.
Ooh, time to decide what you want to do with the presents
Strictly speaking, the day to box up those "gifts" that...
Erm..
Was disown and give them to the poor..
Okay, that was purely pointless.

A week till the new school term
I'm looking and not looking forward to that.
I need new specs..
Bonne Nuit. =D

Christmas eve

2010-12-24T03:24:00.005+08:00

Mm..
The class lists are out.
5S Ren
Half of it are stranger to me
Just hope that SPM come and go fast
And then I'll be out of secondary. =D
Not that I wanted to.
Not so fast.
Hope I won't regret my decision.
Last year.

Lemme dream for a while.
Go8. MBBS.
Reality check
Double Q in need.
I have neither.
Plus, that's way over ambitious.

2010-12-14T04:22:00.003+08:00

Er...
I actually went to bed at 1
and did sleep for a mo
But guess what
Woke up again at 3
Can't get asleep since
Believe me, I've tried.

So, ended up surfing the net
For pre-u thingy-s
Btw, I'm aiming for Taylor's
Actually mom sort of forcibly? suggested that a long time ago(CAL, SAM, Foundation)?
IF my SPM attains the requirements& scholarships

I really am thinking too much. -.-

Oh, and congrats.
Monash Boy.

2010-12-10T03:31:00.000+08:00

Okay.

So, the whole house's dead silent

This seemed perfectly normal for a house at 3 in the morning

But the thing is

I'm still up and wide awake.

This was the perfect condition for the mind to go completely haywire

The competition was a chance to clear things up

Maybe the only one

But fate turned it away.

I guess I'm just too bored to post so much.

2010-12-09T01:26:00.004+08:00

This post is actually due
Well, anyways...
Went to Bentong on 4th and 5th Dec
Staying an orchard owned by WenYee's uncle

Had much fun.
Lots of first time.
Barbeque until 12 midnight
Exploring in the dark with only a small torch
Picking fruits, found an egg while on it
Fishing, in which I caught a fish, descaled and lunch-ed it
The fishes can actually move even after their fins and tails were removed
Catching earthworms, whose inside were of a yellowish ooey gooey jelly-like thingy
Stayed up the whole night without reasons
All in all, a great trip.

Watched Tangled on Tues
Tim Burton's 9 earlier
Finished I Shall Wear Midnight
Oh, and just discovered a great news
The Borrower Arrietty is going to be re-release on 12/8
Nites

2010-11-27T01:13:00.004+08:00

Erm...
Hols has been a bit unexpected
All those time
Alone in the silent house
It's kinda strange.

Well, same routine everyday.
Outing with friends
Tuition for my hopeless maths
Practising taekwondo
But most of the time was just rotting at home
Since the MIECC trip was a disappointment.

A-level or UEC?
Answering questions was never what I excel in.
I need a firm standpoint.
I simply just can't make the wrong decision.

夜深人静，突然觉得不是睡不着，而是固执地不想睡

fragments

2010-11-21T01:24:00.003+08:00

A way.
Releasing all there is
All those tiny fragments cramped in my mind
So painfully mesmerizing
Burden.

24/11
I shall leave it tacitly
Revelation might be in order
Or perhaps, diminishment

2010-11-17T21:22:00.000+08:00

Erm

Well..

Just got the report card yesterday.

Won't be in Zhong next year.

I just hope the friendships can stand the distance.

2010-11-13T00:16:00.000+08:00

10/11
An unforgettable experience being nanny-for-the-day
For another Japanese student-exchange programme
Much better than last time
No offence though
Well, the very least I can still communicate with her using not-so-broken english
Mugiko, a sweet girl.
Too cute to be 17 though
Thanks for the poker..

11/11
The last performance for the year
Black as the new white
By the way
Good luck in the national competition.

Someone told me this

Don't cry because you're leaving

Smile because you were there

love this much.=)

2010-11-06T00:52:00.002+08:00

Well
Results known.
As expected.
Inevitable.

It's not such a bad thing.
I can't deny I'm disappointed, depressed
But since there's nothing I can't do about it
I'll just have to do better next year.

I'm not faking my smile. =)

Update 11.22pm
Performance next thurs
No need for dresses and high heels.
Looking forward to it =D

contradiction

2010-10-28T00:34:00.000+08:00

26/10
So, long story short.
2年5组3班...
5 gals, 3 guys
Nice, polite,... group
Too bad one of them was sick and couldn't go on the trip

KLCC Park ->Central Market ->China town ->Time Square ->KL Tower
Mostly walking route.
A small incident spiced up the day
Hope I didn't destroy the impression for the whole form.
At the end of the day
I guess they did have fun
especially the jungle trekking part..

Totally enjoyed.
I'm good for another trip.
If there ever will be another...

27/10
Attended "practice"..
More like looking after the newbies
After lunch, sat at the c.o. room
as in doing nothing.
While the other were ensemble-ing
till 4pm
What a great way to waste time.

2010-10-23T01:48:00.000+08:00

I feel like running a lap right now.
I missed being exhausted.
Maybe having too much time to myself wasn't a good idea.
Sigh.
I should be enjoying this hols.

Erm and honestly
I'm starting a get a tinsy bit worried about next tues.

Nites.

2010-10-22T00:49:00.000+08:00

Bonjour.=)
Final-term's finally over.
I didn't stay up late for them.
Now, that's a first
And most definitely won't be the last.
Let's just wait for the result
And bid farewell...

I'm in control of my time again.
How great is that.
Finally finished And Thereby Hangs a Tale
A nice day.
Enjoyed.

Ooh... and and
I'm really really looking forward to 26.10
Next Tues..
I'm so very excited..
Hope I won't embarrass myself.>.<
English, english, english...

This doesn't sound like me at all.
Well, whatever.
Treasure the past. Cherish the present. Embrace the future.

2010-09-25T02:21:00.004+08:00

Getting kinda slack-ish lately. Homework put aside, revisions ignored. I didn't even bother to read anymore. That doesn't feel good at all.

I miss those recess practices. I miss the music. I felt so much like going for the competition. The score was quite easy, at least better than 8/7's, and was quite nice too. Too bad I won't have the chance to play it on stage. Seemingly, never will have anymore. Unless, I stay for senior3. Should I? For a time, I had a firm standpoint on that issue, now I don't. Maybe I'll just let the boat drift on its own first.

I'm kinda happy with Anim8or. The outcome was worth all those nights. A project well done. And many thanks to my group, without which the result would be totally different.

Well, final-term's coming. I want to do better this time. Can I ?

Adieu.

Zero

2010-09-09T02:12:00.000+08:00

I know this isn't the right time.
There's a lot waiting for me to do.
Which is so much more important.

Sitting alone in front of the computer.
Media player turned on.
This should be enjoyable.
Silence's approaching, surrounding.
Shattered pieces of memory surfaced.
Reminiscence.
Words alone aren't enough to even describe my feelings.
I need some time to myself.
Nothing is even making the simplest sense.

An eternal pledge,unadorned.
Have a great day anyway.
0

2010-09-08T00:47:00.001+08:00

Back from camp.
Nothing much.

Going to WenYee's for Anim8or later.
Better get back on track fast.
Still couldn't quite grasp the concept of skinning yet.
Wish everything would really go as planned.
We're already far behind schedule.
Time is of the essence.
Haven't even finish all the homework yet.
Needless to say for revision.

One more day to go.
Under the shadow. Still.

2010-09-05T00:47:00.000+08:00

Went bookfair today
The same few
Different feeling
It's amazing how time changes things
Felt weird the whole day though
Not fitting in?

Been with Anim8or ever since I got back home
Well, as said, it's easier said than done.

Oh, and going camp for 3 days
Tomorrow onwards
Then, WenYee's house for 2 days
My holiday seemed to be kinda full?
Maybe it's not such a bad thing
I need distractions.
Enough rubbish.
Bed's a-calling.

3

astray

2010-08-30T02:13:00.000+08:00

Bad habit.
Been staying up late these few days
No thanks to Anim8or
Maybe it's just an excuse?
Well, let's just hope I can get it finish in time.

It's 2 on Monday morning.

Again.

The same silence.

Everything changed.

24/8

2010-08-25T00:41:00.001+08:00

Well..
Quite a day.
Messages on 2157~0002
Wishes from classmates
Then KaiYee, QiJing on the veranda
Cake from GheeKin
Presents from WenYee, SuitYin, HsinYee, Kelvin, ChunBeng, LitJie& ZhaiYun
Lunch with ShingYing
Thanks again for the surprise
And stop saying sorry
Cards with lots of 'be happy', 'smile always' and something like that
Lack of smiles? Hmm...
P.E
Basketball, Knee scratched
I have long-term scar on both my knees now.
Cousin's house
Presents, chatted, dinner
Home
Nokia X6 =D
Comp
With the frustrating Anim8or again
Start countdowning...
0...Poof..Bye
The first time celebrating at school. The best birthday ever.
31/8
After a week, it's still missing.
Imperfections. Release.

2010-08-23T23:21:00.003+08:00

21/8 started like a normal saturday, except that school ended after 2 hours. Well, what do you expect? Outing, again. KLCC. Kinokuniya, zora and zy kinda went mad over a japanese graphic book. Tekkon Kinkreet, I think. Oh, the trio's been missing ever since. Lunch time, at Mdm Kwan's. Then, came the cake, strawberry cheese to be exact, followed by the song. And then, thanks to my big mouth, zora& zy bought The Dreamer, a very costly book. I mean very. Fast forward. Zy and zora went back. Then Godiva Chocolate Truffles, Kel, the 2nd time. Well, someone's wallet's on fire. Then again, maybe not.

Anyways, thanks to each and everyone of you, for the early celebration and the presents. It's really a great day.

23/8 celebrated SuitYin's big day. Chocolate moist from LihJiun's sis. Aside from physics, the day's been great. Got back home, lost in the world of music ever since. Wondering what would happen when the clock strikes twelve. Wondering if you would still do as you've promised.
Well. You didn't. Twisted fate.
灰，非黑，不白
15

2010-08-19T01:51:00.000+08:00

7/8 ended in the blink of an eye
2 hours seemed like only 2 minutes
Well, at least it was worth all those practices
I'm still against dresses.
And will be too.

The standardised tests ended as well
Average, I guess.
Hope everything'll turn out perfectly

Oh, and went for Inception after school
Thumbs up.
Dark Mocha at AustinChase
Devised a new way to play scrabble.

Um. August didn't start as well
Hope nothing'll happen amidst
Let's see if you still remember.
20

2010-07-25T00:43:00.000+08:00

Yay.=)
Finally finished all 4 songs.
although they didn't exactly came out flawless.
Still...
A long lost feeling.
And and..
I indescribable in love with the solo part.=D
looking forward to 7/8

Oh, and my phone just went rip.
I need a new phone. >.<

Suddenly, I'm craving for chocolates. o.O

2010-07-22T22:36:00.001+08:00

Guess what?
Just had chem assessment.
Another let-down presumably.
Confidence?
Lost somewhere? stolen? I don't know.
Maybe it was just me, not working hard enough.
Whatever
I don't care anymore.

Oopsie, lost my concentration lately
Can't seem to focus on the subject
*Slap slap* Wake up!

Oh, another thing worth mentioning.
The wind band's performance was really something
Too bad I couldn't go to the DBKL performance
WenYee, WenTing. Best wishes on Sat.

p/s. Happy Birthday, Hsin Yee. =) Early wishes.

August's coming. Valid?
48

réflexion

2010-07-13T23:29:00.001+08:00

“The Road goes ever on and on down from the door where it began. Now far ahead the Road has gone, and I must follow, if I can, pursuing it with eager feet, until it joins some larger way where many paths and errands meet. And whither then? I cannot say.”

-Tolkien-

2010-07-11T02:33:00.000+08:00

Safe trip...
Have a happy semester.
Nites.
59

Fête du sport 2010

2010-07-03T22:51:00.003+08:00

Sport's day
Well, was kinda boring on the first day
4x400m on the second day
The fourth place.
Good enough
Sorry for being so slow though
Might have a much better chance if Joy was in my place.
Sorry...
Anyways, thanks for the cheering-s
Everyone was there

The best part was the closing ceremony
Waved(?) all around the stadium
Even the teachers cooperated

All in all, a memorable event
Much better than in form1

Oh, and my deepest gratitude to our form teacher.
Merci

67

tourment(?)

2010-06-25T23:06:00.009+08:00

Maybe being negative isn't that bad?
Less hope means less disappointment
I guess.
I'm not suppose to have any feelings right now.
I'm suppose to convince myself that they're not important.
They're just numbers on a piece of white paper
Which might just be the worst thing I've ever seen
It is
Je suis effrayé

75

2010-06-20T01:15:00.001+08:00

Been searching for ghosts these few days
Many thanks to our dear art teacher
Could have finished days ago
But, well. Lazy me

Oh, and Happy Father's Day, daddies

80

campement

2010-06-14T00:19:00.003+08:00

Well.
Went to camp for the last 4 days
Everything went quite smoothly
Except for the very-hot hostel room and the very-cold shower
It's a camp after all.

Basically, it was ensemble, ensemble and more ensemble
The same routine everyday
At least we could enjoy the A/C
Still luckier than the newbies

Accomplishment.
Finally finished all the songs, more specifically, 7 songs
Plus a 4 bars' solo... :D

Could've been the best training camp ever.

86

anniversaire

2010-06-08T02:07:00.000+08:00

Well, not going to be long-winded
Happy Birthday, WenTing.

Suddenly, doesn't feel so enthusiastic about the camp anymore.

92.

déloyal

2010-06-05T22:14:00.000+08:00

Well, well.
Spent almost half the day
playing my taodi& bawu
Getting better with the latter
Still problematic with taodi
Anyways, 3 more idyllic days
and then, camp for 4 days
Gonna miss the outing with yeeteng and huimin =(

Went to the bookfair for the other half of the day
Kinda disappointed actually
I rather go Kinokuniya/Borders. =)
No offence..
Maybe I shouldn't read that much anymore.

oublié

2010-06-04T23:37:00.000+08:00

T'was teachers day.
Oh, well.
As usual, outing
To ye olde place
Watched The Prince of Persia
Kinda enjoyed it.
Loved the quote much

It Is Said Some Lives Are Linked Across Time

They Are Connected By An Ancient Calling That Echoes Through The Ages

Destiny

Met daddy and KaiYee after
Then went to an Unknown Japanese restaurant for a late lunch
Ice-creams...
Sudden change of plan
Went CapSquare alone
Dated with mom =)
Had a great dinner at Modesto's
Oh, and before that, Starbucks..
What a great day.

A two-week holiday
Beginning of Second school term
Praying for survival.

ordinaire

2010-06-01T22:43:00.003+08:00

Stay at school til 7.30pm
kinda spooky
Walked around in circles
like before Only this time, I'm alone
Nice windy evening
Great feeling.

beau soir

2010-05-26T23:30:00.002+08:00

Um...
Mid term ended.
The usual
Outing again
Kept eating, drinking...
and maybe walked around
chatted alot.
Oh, and late celebration for ziqing's birthday
Happy Belated Birthday
Went karaoke too
All in all, not a bad day.
Well, that's all.

Oh, and I need a holiday. STAT
A long one.

I'm in love with this song

2010-05-02T15:15:00.007+08:00

The world is a cruel place. Everyone knows that. I knew it perfectly well too. But deep inside, I couldn't get myself to believe that a world full of people I cared about would be entirely brutal. At least, when I'm at my weakest moment, I could depend on them to be at my side, ready to give me the solace I need. They did. But even that doesn't work every time. A moment of weakness caused a serious misjudgment, which ended in a wrong step. Then everything continues to go astray.

The shattered memories, like pieces of puzzle with apical ends. Try putting it together, a moment of oblivion might end up with wounds, that last forever. But if one can endure the pain, just enough to complete it, it might just be the most breathtaking puzzle ever. Yet, persistence is not something one can find in an every day market.

Happiness doesn't mean everything's perfect

It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections

Once, that was easy.

What happened to
No, of course
I swear
I guess promises are meant to be broken.
Come to think of it
It's not even a promise.

Cherish the past.
Embrace the future.

NoKA

2010-04-28T03:42:00.000+08:00

Attended society earlier today.
Problems again
We've just a bit more than 3 months
And yet.
We've never quite finished an ensemble

White dress & high heels
If it's not for the performance, I won't even consider touching high heels
Yeah, I know I'm weird.=P

I actually went to sleep at 11 earlier.
But I don't know why
Woke up again at 3.30 am
So, I'm here typing craps again
I don't even know if i should post this

My head is starting to feel heavy
Oh, I've just discover something
truffle is actually a kind of mushroom

Duet

2010-04-24T23:17:00.002+08:00

Much time seemed to have passed.
Yet the past still seemed so near.

A familiar melody
A distant memory.
Things might change without it
Whatever

26/4
I played Matsuri today.
It sounded so different.
It should be a duet, not a solo.

2010-04-07T01:04:00.000+08:00

I've never noticed how screwed everything was
Maybe I won't, if not for some recent events

My whole body aches.
But it feels great.

I kinda like the sound of silence.
It has the answer to everything.

I wanna go to bed. Nites

2010-04-05T02:13:00.002+08:00

I should have known
It doesn't apply anymore
I'm such an Idiot.
thgin sselpeels rehtona
This is the last time
No more.
I'm in full control of myself.=)

Riddles...?

Random

2010-03-30T23:18:00.001+08:00

Tests ended. Well, the results won't be good. So, forget about it. p/s. I 'm talking about maths.

I have never felt so lack of confidence before. Did I overestimate myself? Maybe I'm not that good. Before, I think of stress as my impetus to study, it was the force that had kept me moving. Until now.

During this particular period, I felt helpless, a feeling I have never before experienced during tests, at least not in such great magnitude. I tried to overcome it. I've tried everything. Nothing worked. Maybe I'm not being honest enough. All of these were just excuses. I didn't try everything. I didn't even try to overcome it. I just simply let it overwhelm me, and left behind a mess.

All those sleepless night. Studying? Somehow, yes. But I guess deep inside, I was waiting for something to happen. It didn't. I knew that for fact. It won't. Not anymore. Can I have my life back? I miss you still.

Everything is just starting to get exciting.

try this. old and wise, alan parson

Sudden thoughts

2010-03-21T10:40:00.004+08:00

You might feel lost at first
not knowing what you want
But over time
you might found something in the deepest part of your heart
They're just what I thought
I'm sorry I'm not of any help
Be fine, please.

If, I'm just saying. IF
time could be reversed
I rather have the tests again
Those time were really pure torture
It was hard
But come to think of it
They were the best I could ever have
I was happy.
I mean it. Literally.
But time just couldn't be reversed.

I haven't study anything yet.
I haven't have breakfast yet.
I haven't wash my shoes yet.
I haven't finish art yet.
I need more time.

2010-03-20T00:00:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday
A special wish on your special day
Happy always

2010-03-14T00:03:00.001+08:00

Yes, I know
the meaning behind those words

Je sais que je hypocrite

I don't deserve anyone of you
I should just be gone
Save everyone the hassle

Sorry if I offended anyone.

p/s I'm not aiming at anyone

2010-03-12T00:24:00.002+08:00

Er...

Okay, maybe a little school?
Well, society's kinda a mess.
Absent from practice loads of time.
Class
Eh...
Fine, I guess?
Results
One disappointment after another
Almost went mad.
Barely even have the time to breathe
Excuses.

Mises à jour

2010-03-06T18:37:00.000+08:00

School's getting really busy now
But I'm still lazing around
Going to have lots of test next week
Somehow, it doesn't seem that bad
Being busy helps
A lot

And guess what
My hols is going down the drain
Again

Kinda surprised for such good performance today
the first ever ensemble for this song

I wanna watch Alice in Wonderland.
Beautiful Creatures by Kami Garcia& Margaret Stohl
officially added to my wishlist =)

fragments #4

2010-02-27T00:24:00.006+08:00

At first, I wanted to just ignore it
I hesitate
At last, I gave in
I'm glad

I saw your draft
Don't be sorry
What's done had been done

It'll be great if it was as easy as you say
I'm sorry I didn't keep the promise
Thank you.
For everything.
Goodbye.

fragments #3

2010-02-21T00:22:00.003+08:00

Why can't it be perfect?
Even just for one day
Is it too much to ask for?
I just want to go back
back to when everything's fine
when I could easily immense in anything

Unlike now
words, images, feelings
from the past
I wished everything would just disappear

No matter how hard I try
To forget, to be busy, to suppress
They just kept coming back
It's not supposed to be like this

I saw your eyes. Yes, I meant you, daddy.
How are you?

2010-02-19T03:09:00.002+08:00

Erm...
First of all, belated wishes for cny and valentines

Well
just got back from someplace
anyone miss me?
okay, straight to the point
this year's cny is
the best
the worst
the most boring
the laziest

Best- I don't have to face all my relatives, always asking results, comparing
Worst-......
Boring- nobody call, some sms-ed though. thanks. Sry for not replying and for wasting your money
Laziest- Kept playing while all my homework piled up on the table? And I still haven't revise any of the tests yet

Conclusion?
The trip's great. But cny isn't that great after all.

And back to 12/02
thanks to suit yin for the fr
Outing with wenyee
lunch, walked around, chatted
Please keep in mind, no one'll ever replace you
I hope you understand. Not yet.

fragments #2

2010-02-10T22:32:00.001+08:00

Ties
Everything true?
In the past
Disappearing into the wind
Broken

Lies.

Rire est juste ce que vous voyez

parfois, apparence peut être tromper

Savez-vous combien il est difficile de dire je vais bien ?

Je suis fatigué de toujours couché

Week. Faults. Naive.

fragments.

2010-02-03T01:31:00.005+08:00

I've been staring at the monitor for quite some time already. I know it sounds stupid. But I guess that's just how I am. I've so many things to share. But deep inside, something's stopping me from doing so. I can't get over my conscience. While I'm typing this post, a part of me is objecting, and urging me to study for the coming tests. Am I giving myself too much pressure? I wish.

I'd never thought a sight could change so much. It could easily drag a person's soul from the highest heaven down to the deepest chasm. Just a sight, nothing more. But when something hurts too much, one would be numb. Everything was still fine by then. It changed everything. That night, everything that I thought was dead came back to life. I never knew they were still there. I felt like someone's stabbing me. There was never a choice. 27/2, one last time ?

Anyways, you were there when I needed someone. I really appreciated it. And now, I just want to let you know, I'll always be here. Although I know I won't be of much help. Talk anytime, when you feel like it. You said so yourself, you would collapse if you keep everything to yourself. So, don't. And, don't worry. True friendship doesn't break apart that easily. Good luck, dear daddy. Cheers.
I'm actually getting online without my mom knowing. Oh, am I bad.
And now, running out of things to post. Not a little bit of tiredness. Perhaps, I'm just afraid to go to bed. It was such a wonderful day. I wished there was PE everyday.

Hmm...What if time could be reversed?

Stress?

2010-01-23T21:53:00.136+08:00

Was it stress? Everyone seemed so emotional recently. Or is there something wrong with my senses? I don't know. Anyway, had the year's first ever test yesterday. Algebra. Erm... nothing much to say about it. Just wait until I get my paper back.=)
Update 27/1
Eh...well...Got the algebra paper today. I flunked. The first test.

Biology's starting to get interesting now. Chemistry, still fine with it. Physics, as usual, confusing. Need more practise but too lazy to do so. Same thing with mathematics. Vball again this year. I like Bball more. Comp, 4 periods this year, can't wait to do the project.=)

Gotta study more this year. None of the major subjects are those that I'm confident in. Well, maybe except for biochem. And erm, eng? The notes work fine last year. That leave me with physics and maths. Kinda slow on physics and a bit fast on maths. Whatever.
Update 30/5
Who would have know? I used to have lots of confidence in Bio&Chem. But the results turned out that the high marks i got before was just sheer luck. Have I made a wrong decision, choosing science stream?

Anticipating 29th & 30th...

2010-01-19T01:31:00.001+08:00

Somehow

all those homework made me feel secured. =)

Hmm.... Am I bad...

Nites...^^

Fingers crossed

2010-01-17T17:22:00.001+08:00

Yup, the second week came and gone.

Everything seems to be getting into place.

Leaving it to the time did do the trick.

It went as swiftly as it came. Did it really?

I guess

At some point

It's not that bad after all.

2010-01-10T01:19:00.001+08:00

Life's getting more and more hectic
hardly following the pace
And it's going to get much worse
Guess that's how Seniors supposed to be
Then again, it's not such a bad thing
I like being busy

2 Hours . 6 Questions
Pathetic much?
How am I going to finish the exams in time?
Should I go for tuition?
Any suggestion?

2009.

2010-01-01T23:21:00.002+08:00

Er... it's actually a bit late to post this but i'm going to post it anyway.
A quick review of 2009
looking back at those memories actually reminded me lots of things

Well, due to some reasons
Didn't quite look forward to be in 3Zhong at first
But it turned out to be not what I expected
Eventhough there's some tiny little flaws but it's great enough
After all, nothing's perfect.

Choir competition and the Exams
HuiMin and YeeTeng's farewell party
The Academy & Extracurricular exhibition
90th aniversary Grand Dinner
And of course, many other that made 2009 wonderful
Everything will forever be in my memories
A notable past.

2009 is a past now. No regrets.

2009-12-28T23:42:00.003+08:00

Finally back from Taiwan
Overall, the trip was still enjoyable

well, you won't want to read all the details
so, a summary
ask some Qs if you want =)

Day1
Hmm...arrived at Taoyuan at about 5/6 in the evening
much smaller airport. much better service.
the climate there was nice
natural a/c
bullet train to taipei - night market - hotel - sleep

Day 2
Finally bought an ocarina which cost $500
which was kinda not so expensive
geological park - lunch - Taipei 101 - dinner

Day 3
3 temples, nice view, maybe?
the hotel was really erm...exotic? though
keep anticipating the pics...
128 ran out today
oh, and phoned c.yew ^^

Day 4
well, spent my christmas in a temple
1 temple. 1/4 day
at least the second half of the day was great.
spa at night. must try
was really comfortable but the water kinda smell like rotten egg

Day 5
Farm - mountain side
that's all, got some nice pics though

Day 6
a memorial temple, a great place to revise china's history
museum, then listent to some feng shui speech...= =
another night market
weather got really cold because of the rain
really nice to have a hot coffee around when it's only 7 degree

Day 7
woke up at 4 am
check in -> 5 am
back in kl around 1
home around 2

Okay, due to my short term memory
these're all i could remember
sounds kinda boring huh
well, the food's great and much much more cheaper than kl's
and the view...=)
the best was the attitude of the taiwanese
they don't seem to get mad in any way
and a perfect place to learn 'please' and 'thank you'

and btw, this's the first time i'm blogging using my new laptop.^^
p.s. shall upload the pics later...

Greetings

2009-12-25T00:00:00.060+08:00

Hmm...
I should be in Taiwan right now
Well, it's christmas...
so, anyone miss me? ^^
probably not...

Okay then,
won't want to bored you
so, keep anticipating the pressies...
though there MIGHT be none =)

Ah... PMR
if i'm correct, result's announced yesterday
Enjoy ^^

This, the spirit of Christmas, that forever and ever endures.

May it leave its richest blessing in the hearts of you and yours.

-author unknown-

2009-12-22T00:59:00.001+08:00

Adieu.=)

2009-12-17T00:56:00.006+08:00

Well...
UEC result was announced
Erm, well
To tell the truth
I really am surprised
And I've got what I wanted
notebook
and to be precise.
An Asus UL80V

Gorgeous, isn' it?

Thanks, dad =)
oh, and congrats to those who scored straight A's
as well as those that didn't
you've given your best

Sorry, daddy for worrying you the past few days

And if you want your revenge

get it some other way

Please be fine, daddy

Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect.

It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.

2009-12-15T02:39:00.000+08:00

8.00 am arrived, walked around the school
8.15 am went up, practice
9.30 am gather.
9.40 am started practice, officially...
11.30 am ensemble
1.00 pm lunch.
1.20 pm finished, went for a stroll around the school
2.00 pm gather.
2.05 pm tidying the room.
2.30 pm finished. nothing else to do. wait... while...
3.00 pm changed into costume, make up
4.00 pm finished. wait...
4.01~8.29pm chatting, taking pics, singing, dinner, playing games......
8.30pm the PM arrived.
8.31~ 10pm chatting, re-make up, playing...
10.01pm perform time...
10.30pm ended...
10.40pm took pics at the stage
11.00pm cake for supper
12.00pm home

This was my day, sounds sort of pointless, hmm?
Well... overall, conductor was satisfied.
Seemed like those weeks of practices wasn't in vain

Next. Hols... for 3 days, then back to the camp. Poor me....? Nah. better

books

2009-12-03T01:37:00.000+08:00

Just finished The Lost Symbol. Simply great.

Oh, and by the way, someone, please get me a new book. TT

Should I be off to bed now?